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She was really shook by the event. We, the viewers, have come to accept a few murders. This was her first exposure to real violence of this kind.
Sure, she got a kick out of running scams, but she never wanted to physically hurt anyone. Then Howard is executed right in front of her. She might have been willing to hurt him professionally, but I think she had some amount of respect for him. Then Lalo sent her to kill Gus, with the knowledge that Jimmy was in mortal danger. She appeared to be ready to do it.
The whole experience took her to an emotional place she had never been, not even close. She views herself as culpable in Howards death. She wanted to run away as far and as fast as she could - but she also feels a professional duty to not leave her clients totally in the lurch. Resigning her license, keepng within the procedures of the legal system, was her way to do that.
If she had taken a week to think that through, she might not have done it. In the emotional Now - she felt she needed to get away fast
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